Anxiety is the 21st Century's New Name for Fear

Ok, I know this title seems a little deep. And to be honest, I don't even really know where I am going to go with this. I have to say however, I have struggled my entire life with fear and anxiety. One night, I was trying to figure out what on earth I mostly fear over and then it came to me as I was watching CNN. (I know dad, but we don't get FOX)



Anyway, some report was on concerning this financial crisis that our country is in and they had said, "If you are fearing the unknown, this is what you can do insure your $$$....Bla bla bla...." After that comment, It totally hit me!!!! I am almost always in fear of the UNKNOWN!!! Always! It is like I have a really difficult time just living in the moment. I fear my families death, I fear having no job, I fear my kids rebelling when they are older, I fear spinal injuries, I fear my friends and family not being pleased with me, I fear conflict in my life. I fear things that haven't even happened yet, like, "If I lose 20lbs, what if I can't keep it off!"



Anne, maybe you should be just worried about getting off your duff and working out TODAY!



I have got to get this fear thing under control.



Another thing that made me realize that worrying is just a waist of energy was with what happened this past week. As most of you know, I was pregnant and then unfortunately I miscarried. During my pregnancies with Joe and Jett, the entire time, I thought I would never be able to survive if something happened. And even during this preg. I was like panicking over things....but it did happen. There was nothing I could do. God was in the drivers seat. And I survived.



And that brings me to my last thought. God is in control. He knows my future. He knows what will work, what will fail. He knows what blessings are in store for my life and the unfortunate sorrows that comes along with life. I just have to give everything to Him. What is the point of faith if it isn't put to use?



Anyway, these are my thoughts today. Nothing real fun to read. But nevertheless felt good to put into words. (No worries mom, I will still take me meds!:)

Family Sacrifice? Not Really!

Once again Kati, Lynn, Shelbi, Dylan, and Christian made the long trip to visit us from Bakersfield, CA. (Thank you guys!) We had the best time! Kati and I always talk about how we won't see each other for months but still pick up where we left off when we're reunited! Someone said to me at one point, "That is a really big sacrifice to use all your vaca and $$ on family all the time..." But I was thinking, "I wouldn't want to spend my time any other way!" I feel blessed that we have family who wants to spend time with us and that we thoroughly enjoy hanging out with. If we all lived in the same town, I would love hanging out with them! So sacrifice? Not at all... the only real sacrifice is having to wait till the next time!